My friend who introduced us said now she's sorry she did. I told her please don't be because I don't regret one single minute of it. How could I possibly regret meeting such an amazing man? I fell in love, why should I regret that? I truly opened my heart for the first time in 24 years. I allowed myself to be vulnerable and experienced such joy. We got along so well and had such great times together. How could I possibly regret any of it?
Oh don't get me wrong, I am sad, so very sad. And heartbroken, oh yes. But regret is not one of the things I'm feeling. My heart is still telling me that this is not completely over, that this is not the end of our story. Right now, he is doing one of the most loving things for himself and I can't be angry at that. Of course I wish I was by his side helping him deal with it all but that's not what he wanted and in the end is probably not the best for either of us. It hurts, believe me, but I have nothing but love for this man. He opened my heart and for that I am forever grateful. I still love him deeply and I can't imagine that ever changing. Only time will tell how this story unfolds, but I can tell you with absolute certainty that I will never regret any of it.